Wrestling with Surrender – Part 1

I’m a wrestler.  No, not a WWE wrestler, but a wrestler of ideas.  I value the ability to let an idea marinate in my brain for a while.  To hold it up to different lights and test its muster. To say it out loud and see how it bounces...
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The Masks We Wear

Many of us wear a “mask” of some sorts nearly everyday.  We hide behind a carefully constructed facade, giving off a distinctly crafted vibe.  We scurry through our lives afraid that someone might pause long enough to realize that what they see is a trick of costumery.  Each morning,...
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Little Reminders & The “What ifs”

The week before Halloween, I found myself missing Rylie a little more than usual.  It was a busy week, so I was more tired than usual. Lack of sleep always affects how I cope, but it was also just a week full of activities that Rylie would have enjoyed. ...
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Six Months Later

Six months ago at about this time, I was having lunch for the last time with Rylie. At that moment, I had no idea that a few short hours from then would be the last time I would ever hear her voice, see her blue eyes glitter at me,...
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The Power of Comparison

As a society, we’ve grown accustomed to making comparisons. Sometimes these comparisons can motivate us and make us stronger. Other times they can be harmful – making us wonder if we’ll ever be good enough, fast enough, strong enough or just plain old enough. When Rylie and Tanner were...
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“Celebrating” Rylie’s 13th Birthday

There are many things in this world that I don’t understand. Some hit very close to home, while others are so big and worldly that I can’t even begin to fathom them. Thirteen years ago Ziggy and I were given the most amazing gift in the world. We held...
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Understanding Grace

Grace… As a lover of words, I take pride in the words that I choose and use. Grace is a word that, up until the last few years (yes, years not months), didn’t really live in my vocabulary. I’m not sure why, but it wasn’t a word that I...
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When Words Evade Me – Or Not

There was a time not so long ago that the words just seemed to pour themselves out on the page. They’d capture exactly how I was feeling with just a tweak or two. Lately, they evade me. I want to write – to capture this sense of disorientation –...
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A New First – First Day of School

There’s a point in our lives where we look forward to firsts. A child’s first word, first step, or first day of school. A first date. A first day at a new job. If we’re honest though, there’s times as parents that we look forward to lasts too. The...
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My calendar is filled with minutia. If you look at my appointments or my to do list, it looks like I’m very busy, but… So little of what is on my calendar and lists really matter. What matters is opportunities to connect. Not to say I’ve had dinner with...
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